I guess one could call me an ex-muslim although I wanted to give a few debates another try — ascertain whether I can be swayed back to Islam, even if nominally.
I'm not very good with introductory platitudes but I'm someone with a background in philosophy (islamic and western both) marxism, and history. I guess what caused me to become disillusioned with the faith was the complete lack of critical engagement with philosophical questions in my islamic community. Instead when I asked questions about morals, determinism, dialectics and causality, I was always given a very kurt bourgeois response along the lines of 'don't obsess over this stuff and enjoy life'. Needless to say, I wasn't satisfied with this flippant attitude although I comprehend it, of course. My community originates from a country that is reveling in the glories of neoliberalism so optimism for the future is at its absolute pinnacle. There is no need to ask perturbing questions when things are going well.
I guess my main problem with islam is the disastrous consequences of asharite causality. If we can conceive of causal chains operating along the lines of allah>A, allah>B, allah>C (which appears to be the most philosophically sound approach in accordance with islam) then we cannot speak of human agency at all, contra-mu'tazili doctrine that commits reified shirk by asserting that all acts in the universe are somehow autonomous from God. But this kind of Ghazalian mysticism inevitably leads to deism or agnosticism because morality cannot be said to exist as an absolute category, unless we are somehow contending that God is confined by morality, which makes him imperfect as he cannot transcend it.
My question is: is there a scholar who has offered a perspicacious response to this proposed internal inconsistency or was islam, like Christianity, destined for a reactive nihilism to arise out of a negative, in the typically Deleuzian–Nietzschean sense?
I earnestly request that people avoid the typical Hamza Yusuf/Tariq Ramadan crowd in answering my question. These are absolute hackjobs that manage to make Christian apologists look intelligent, which is not saying much, let's be honest.