Atif Rahman
21st December 2002, 11:37
Salamz everyone!
There are now 17 days left for the exams!! Things are getting really hectic for me now. I spent the last week buried in the underground hospital library at our Teaching Hospital here in Peshawar. On average, I've been studying for 15 hours a day for the last week.
You know when I left Islamabad (home sweet home) a week back, I was really tense and depressed. At that time, there were 23-24 days left and I really didn't know how I was going to finish the course in time. My problem was that I couldn't motivate myself to put in the number of hours needed to my work to get it done in time. I was getting sick with worry.
Then when I landed in Peshawar (not so sweet, for those that are wondering), I immediately started clocking up mammoth number of hours of studying. If anyone had told me 10 days ago that I'd be in the position I am in now in my studies, I wouldn't have believed them. I only sometimes go into high gear like I'm doing now and whenever I do, I'm usually driven by sheer terror of the exams. These days however, I'm in the greatest of moods. I'm working like a dog, and having a great time doing it. I'm really positive about the exams and about all things in general.
I really don't know why this happened to me. The subjects in this year (pharmacology, forensic science and pathology) are really boring and devilishly difficult to master. I've been dogged all year long by problems of motivation and interest in my work, and was worried it would all end miserably. Now, suddenly, I find it interesting and easy, and I think I will do really well in the exams. I can't tell you why I feel like this, no more than I can explain why I felt so uncharacteristically undisciplined in my studies for most of the year.
Maybe this is how Allah's help is manifesting itself. Maybe this is how my prayers (and yours I hope!) are being answered. I know from experience, that what I'm going through now is highly unusual. My classfellows are all really worried about the exams and are these days marveling at my stamina and spirits. Even *I* am marvelling at myself. This is my own personal "miracle." I never expected this to happen.
Remember me in your prayers, if I go on like this, then I'll do great in the exams.
There are now 17 days left for the exams!! Things are getting really hectic for me now. I spent the last week buried in the underground hospital library at our Teaching Hospital here in Peshawar. On average, I've been studying for 15 hours a day for the last week.
You know when I left Islamabad (home sweet home) a week back, I was really tense and depressed. At that time, there were 23-24 days left and I really didn't know how I was going to finish the course in time. My problem was that I couldn't motivate myself to put in the number of hours needed to my work to get it done in time. I was getting sick with worry.
Then when I landed in Peshawar (not so sweet, for those that are wondering), I immediately started clocking up mammoth number of hours of studying. If anyone had told me 10 days ago that I'd be in the position I am in now in my studies, I wouldn't have believed them. I only sometimes go into high gear like I'm doing now and whenever I do, I'm usually driven by sheer terror of the exams. These days however, I'm in the greatest of moods. I'm working like a dog, and having a great time doing it. I'm really positive about the exams and about all things in general.
I really don't know why this happened to me. The subjects in this year (pharmacology, forensic science and pathology) are really boring and devilishly difficult to master. I've been dogged all year long by problems of motivation and interest in my work, and was worried it would all end miserably. Now, suddenly, I find it interesting and easy, and I think I will do really well in the exams. I can't tell you why I feel like this, no more than I can explain why I felt so uncharacteristically undisciplined in my studies for most of the year.
Maybe this is how Allah's help is manifesting itself. Maybe this is how my prayers (and yours I hope!) are being answered. I know from experience, that what I'm going through now is highly unusual. My classfellows are all really worried about the exams and are these days marveling at my stamina and spirits. Even *I* am marvelling at myself. This is my own personal "miracle." I never expected this to happen.
Remember me in your prayers, if I go on like this, then I'll do great in the exams.